taking life for granted

Well I just wanted to say a few things to everyone. Recently we lost a brother in law suddenly from a brain anurism. It was such a shock to everyone and I still cannot believe he is gone! He left behind a wife who loves him so much and 3 little girls; Kasy- 6 Isa- 4 and Kayla- not even a yr old yet. My heart feels so heavy because the last time I seen him was christmas. And I was too wrapped up in everything going on to even acknowledge he was there. I dont even remember saying hi! And I feel so bad because while he was alive there were times I would bitch and moan about stupid things about him that are really none of my business. I could say all these things about him and now that he is gone I remember all the great things about him! He was so funny and really did always madke everyone laugh. He would give you the shirt off his back! He may have had his problems but everyone does! I can think of so many memories with him! He really was such a great person, a great husband, and a great father! He loved his little girls and his wife so much! I know he loved all of us too. I was always to busy nit picking the little shit to think about all the good things about him and the good times we all shared. I am very gald to say that we did get to spend a lot of time with him. The time I have been with victor I have had the opportunity to get to know him and share many laughs with him. I just wish I would have seen past negative things and all the little bs I focused on to have been able to appreciate the great things about him while he was still alive to share it with. I was gonna write a few of my favorite memories but I really cant pick a favorite! When I actually sit down and think about it there are a ton! More than I thought ya know. But I will say now we both know the difference between a lime and a lemon. lol..... But I would like to say to Lucio that I am sorry I didnt spend more time with you and I didnt always have an opened mind to you. There is really nothing wrong with you it was always me being a brat! But I am very grateful for the time I did spend with you and the good memories I will have of you forever! You will always be in our hearts!

Rest In Peace We love you

And to everyone.... I just want you all to know I love you. With this I have found a new meaning to the phrase, "taking life for granted". I know see not only do we take our own lifes for granted but others as well. We should live everyday and treat every person as if they wont be here tomorrow. Always say I love you, hug before you leave, Dont waste so much time being angry at someone.... forgive! Try and always see the good in people. You never know who will be with you tommorow. For me I dont want to have any regrets like I did when I heard Lucio died. " I didnt even get to say goodbye " how often do you hear that! I dont ever want to loose another person and wonder if they knew I love them. I want to make sure everyone in my life knows how special they are to me before Im telling them into a casket. Life really is too short and we never know what tommorrow brings!

So long Curls!!!

So I have been wanting to take bimps in to get a haircut for a while now.... Just a little one like last time! But last night him and vic talked me into just letting vic do it! Here it is!!!!

I cant believe how grown up he looks now! I wanna cry! Of course we have to take him in soon anyways to get it fixed! But hey...... he tried!

Mister Trouble!!!

Well this isnt something I have apicture of....... just a funny story. So last night Victor left some cayan pepper on the stove after using it. Well Benjamin pushed his little bike over to the stove, climbed on top of it, and got a hold of the cayan pepper. And when ever he is doing something he shouldnt he crawls into the closet and hides..... Well all of the sudden he comes running out of the room screaming like he was dying and rubbing his eyes! I couldnt tell what was wrong so I went into the room and just before the closet door was the cayan pepper spilled everywhere! I went and flushed out his eyes the best I could! He was fine... but im sure he will stay away from that stuff now! I swear.... I know kids always get into things but this kid is the king of accidents for doing something he shouldnt. One time he was in the bathroom and climbed into the toilet and got his foot stuck in the hole! We couldnt get it out and victor was seriously ready to break the toilet.... but finally it popped out. Then in that same day he found some Icy Hot that victor had JUST finishe using and walked away from it for 2 seconds to go put on some sweats.... and of course here comes benjamin screaming.... He had rubbed it all down in his diaper. And for those of you who know how icy hot feels you can only imagine how it felt down there! lol. Then another time he got some benedryl out of the diaper bag. I had had it in there cause we were just at my dads and he is allergic to his cats. Well I come out of the bathroom and he is sitting on the floor with the bottle open! I immediatly called poison control and asked what to do. I wasnt sure if he had gotten any so I smelled his breathe and it didnt smell like it. Poison control told me to either take him to the hospital to be safe or keep an eye on him and if he starts acting a little tired to rush him in immediatly.... well he was running around being his normal crazy self so I didnt worry. Then there was another time he got the closet open and got it again. This time I saw him open it and it just spilled all over the couch! another time vic had left some of those work out vitamins on the stairs cause he was planning to take them to work with him. Well of course he forgot and benjamin found them right away. He went and hid behind the couch and opened them. They were like those plastic capsules withthe powder in them. And when I found him he had the powder all over his face. So of course I called poisen control and had to take him to the hospital that time because he had obviously taken some amount. We were just unsure of how much. and those pills have a high level of caffeigne so they had to monitor his heart for like 4 hours!!! It was beating a little faster than normal.... so we just kept a close eye on him. Eventually his heart slowed back down and he was fine! But imagine being 8 months pregnant and trying to hold a 2 yr old down on the bed who is loaded with caffeigne! lol. It was not fun!

Picture Tag

Heres the deal..... My sister Jessica Tagged me. Which means I had to post the 4th picture from my 4th album in my computer. Here it is. Its my bimps riding a pony at a fair. He loved it and refused to get off!!! Now I tag Mom, Jen, Amy, and Brianne!!!

Mommy Aries

So yesterday I was looking at my astrology stuff and just reading about what us "aries" are like and just find it very interesting how dead on it is about me. Even the negative stuff. lol. But one thing that really stood out was it said "Arians are highly devoted to their children, even to the point of laying down their own lives, so that they might live. You will not find a more defensive and loving parent in all the zodiac." And for those of you who know me well enough you know how paranoid I am about my babies!!! I mean Im sure most parents would lay down their own life for their children.... but I can see me being more protective of my kids then most. Like Benjamin is 2 yrs old now and has really never been out of my site besides when I had surgery and when I had Anderson. I always say I want to leave them with someone to do something with Vic sometimes... but when it comes time I just cant leave them. I just thought that was funny that it said that!

My Turn

So everyone else has these blog things I figured it was time for me to get one too! So here it is you all!!!! Enjoy! I dont know if I will have as much to say as some but I will try my best to keep you all entertained!!!