Friday, January 23, 2009

taking life for granted



Well I just wanted to say a few things to everyone. Recently we lost a brother in law suddenly from a brain anurism. It was such a shock to everyone and I still cannot believe he is gone! He left behind a wife who loves him so much and 3 little girls; Kasy- 6 Isa- 4 and Kayla- not even a yr old yet. My heart feels so heavy because the last time I seen him was christmas. And I was too wrapped up in everything going on to even acknowledge he was there. I dont even remember saying hi! And I feel so bad because while he was alive there were times I would bitch and moan about stupid things about him that are really none of my business. I could say all these things about him and now that he is gone I remember all the great things about him! He was so funny and really did always madke everyone laugh. He would give you the shirt off his back! He may have had his problems but everyone does! I can think of so many memories with him! He really was such a great person, a great husband, and a great father! He loved his little girls and his wife so much! I know he loved all of us too. I was always to busy nit picking the little shit to think about all the good things about him and the good times we all shared. I am very gald to say that we did get to spend a lot of time with him. The time I have been with victor I have had the opportunity to get to know him and share many laughs with him. I just wish I would have seen past negative things and all the little bs I focused on to have been able to appreciate the great things about him while he was still alive to share it with. I was gonna write a few of my favorite memories but I really cant pick a favorite! When I actually sit down and think about it there are a ton! More than I thought ya know. But I will say now we both know the difference between a lime and a lemon. lol..... But I would like to say to Lucio that I am sorry I didnt spend more time with you and I didnt always have an opened mind to you. There is really nothing wrong with you it was always me being a brat! But I am very grateful for the time I did spend with you and the good memories I will have of you forever! You will always be in our hearts!

Rest In Peace We love you
And to everyone.... I just want you all to know I love you. With this I have found a new meaning to the phrase, "taking life for granted". I know see not only do we take our own lifes for granted but others as well. We should live everyday and treat every person as if they wont be here tomorrow. Always say I love you, hug before you leave, Dont waste so much time being angry at someone.... forgive! Try and always see the good in people. You never know who will be with you tommorow. For me I dont want to have any regrets like I did when I heard Lucio died. " I didnt even get to say goodbye " how often do you hear that! I dont ever want to loose another person and wonder if they knew I love them. I want to make sure everyone in my life knows how special they are to me before Im telling them into a casket. Life really is too short and we never know what tommorrow brings!